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| didn't make it |
| 08.19.04 (4:10 pm) [edit] |
i kind of knew i wasn't going to make it to the gym. started fading in the afternoon. figured i'd do crunches at home, pushups. i tried to do crunches, but my abs are killing me, no way. i did 10 girly pushups so far.
i spoke to emily at the upenn department of the harvard bipolar research study. you have to pay for the psychiatric visits, not cool. i'm not seeing a shrink now, do i think it would be worth it? i mean, it would be helpful for others if i participate in this study, but i don't know if i want to be talking to a shrink at this point. which probably means that i should be. i don't know. any information i can give might help someone else. i'm conflicted. they're going to call me back next week anyway.
everything on tnt is a total repeat. i've seen this law and order a dozen times. i'm not hungry. i took a zonegran at 6 something, finally got it from the pharmacy. i had some ice cream, but my heart isn't in it. maybe i can convince myself to go to the gym tomorrow morning.
i've read everything in my apartment at least once, most twice. ah. svu is on usa. i don't think i've seen this one. nope. one of my cacti sent up a spike. hopefully mouchie won't eat it. i caught her trying to eat the orchid again this morning.
i keep picking at my skin. i know it's obsessive, i need to stop. i can't help it. i know i should eat something but the thought is nauseating. i wish all thoughts of food would do that on a regular basis. i hate that i weighed more this morning. why am i like this now? this morning was so much better.
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posted by: newbie (reply)
post date: 02.08.05 (8:55 am)
yeheh
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